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I am not as strong what I think, maybe?

by ~RuiRuin, May 9, 2013, 5:40:12 AM
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You said and even showed me that I am a strong girl ... but, the facts said the reverse ... I am not as strong as what you made me think ...
I've cried a lot ... a lot ... at least this days ...
You said I can continue my life after You take me out from the darkness side of my life .. You even showed me how wonderful this life ...
You blessed my days ... You showed me that I could overcome every obstacle ... Yes, I did it ...
But ... Now, all the things that made me think I am a strong girl with a great power given by her God ... were just suddenly distructed by all things that happened in my life ... those things made myself lost its strength and passion .. made me even can sacrifice my own self .. the soul that I already tried to preserve out form depression ... but, now everything leads myself (again) to the hole of depression ...
Things like pray only hold me far from the distruction of myself, but not save me from the dark hole (that thing which tortured me in the past) ...

What more? I even cannot look myself on the mirror ... not anymore ....

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Mood: Depressed
Listening to: Westlife - Flying Without Wings
Reading: My pray to God
Watching: Progress of my event
Playing: No time to play
Eating: No need food
Drinking: Even not feeling thirsty

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May 9, 2013 I am not as strong what I think, maybe?
May 9, 2013 Why does it turn to be so hard, God?
Jan 11, 2012 Feeling like 'losing myself'
Sep 4, 2011 Finished Packing For Going Back To Purwokerto
Sep 2, 2011 To Get The New One, I Have To Lose The Old One :(
Sep 1, 2011 Trust The Miracles, Love Is One Of It
Aug 31, 2011 Korean Drama Starts To Attack Me Again!!!
Aug 27, 2011 I Should Not Cry, It Should Be, But I Cried ...
Aug 26, 2011 Trip To Purwokerto
Aug 16, 2011 Packing, Packing, and Packing!! =.=

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Helen
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Indonesia

Hello, DA lovers!!
I'm Helen, 17 years old, and Indonesian!

I love drawing, but since being a collage student and have not spare time to do this anymore, I started to stop submit art into DA. But, seems I like another interest. Well, this is not a new one, I ever did it in high school and now I wanna do it again. Yeah, writing! I love drawing and also writing. Those are only hobbies, but those simple things can make me happy enough.

I have some lovely friends here. They are :

I love you, guys!!

Alright, I think enough for now. Let's know each other, guys!

Current Residence: Indonesia
Favourite genre of music: Pop, Progressive Pop, Pop Rock, Slow Rock, Slow Pop
Favourite style of art: Traditional and Digital Art
MP3 player of choice: Winamp, Cowon Media Center - Jet Audio
Wallpaper of choice: Anime, Nature, Landscape, Babies
Favourite cartoon character: Rukia Kuchiki, Princess Belle, Kaoru Kamiya, Kenshin Himura, Byakuya Kuchiki, Rapunzel, Barbie
Personal Quote: Life was what God gave us, but the true life is what we do using the power of God

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~LinsDrawn Jul 29, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

eeye, you got tagged

~RuiRuin Aug 18, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Hello my little sister! How are you doing? Tomorrow is a great holiday in Indonesia. We celebrate this day by ask everyone to forgive our mistakes to them. So, I do apologize to you for being lost in some months ..

I hope you still remember me

~LinsDrawn Aug 25, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

hello my sister!!!
i'm doing well!!! i just came back from Schotland and i looooved it!!!
how are you doing?

aw, it doesn't matter, of course i remember you!!

how are you?

~RuiRuin Dec 27, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Helloooo!!!! Wooww! Schotland? Did you spend holiday there or just a school touring? I can hear your enjoyment voice here ^_^

I also came back from Singapore joining a debate competition there.
hey, do you have Skype? maybe we can keep in touch by chatting or video skype. I just wanna know you more as my first sister overseas

If you don't mind, of course. It doesn't mean I have lots of spare time, perhaps in some of my spare time, when you are online, then we can have a video chat

I'm in a bad situation .. no, physically I'm fine, but mentally I feel bad because I just feel disappointment on my friends and organization that I was involved there along this year.

Hey, anyway did you celebrate Christmas? If yes, Merry Christmas! So sorry for lately saying it to you.

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*M41Aconner May 11, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRIEND!!!!